Shubhashish

my life has suddenly turned a turtle’s. Spending each milli-second is tiresome. tick tock tick tock tick tock…….

There cannot be a bigger punishment than this.

what does one mean one taking a break? I want to be alone for sometime and see where this is goin? What? I just realised… It means beginning of an end.

Beginning of an end. BEGINNING OF AN END.

Honestly, I never imagined this day. And the more I think of it the more disgust I experience. What am I tryin to realise in this break? Whether I want to be with you or no? Hell, I know this answer. I dont need a “break” to realise anything. I want to be with you.

Suddenly, this whole idea of a “break” seems so odd. WHAT THE FUCK DOES THIS MEAN? Can we stay away from each other? WHO THE FUCK WANTS TO?

SHIT. I CANT BELIEVE WE DID THIS. The profoundity has just shown its colour. This is the beginning of an end. AN end I thought would never come but life does have some serious surprises in store for us.

FUCK. I. CANT. BELIEVE. THAT. WE DECIDED. TO STAY. AWAY. FROM. EACH. OTHER.

I GUESS THIS IS IT THEN.

CIAO.

i have realised that I am not the same witty guy I used to be… he isl eft far behind… do I regret? Not really, but I do miss him. Do I want him back? May be not. Why? Because I am happy this way.

Now, if someone feels that i have changed coz I hurt many with my earlier behaviour and I have been forced to “change”, I say get a life. I really dont care a damn abt anyone. ANYONE. I have changed coz I felt that change is good. Am I happy, Yes I am.

my expectations are going down… which is a good thing… we all know that expectations cause problems… everytime… I expect… i do.. a lot… its tuff to calm them but I am doing it.. with success… 

at every step, every juncture, i have failed. two people can be diagonally opposite but what makes the relationship work is that they love and learn to adjust with each others shortcomings. They learn to hold hands and walk when one of them halts. They learn to speak when the other cant.

I may be bad, intentions crooked, aim unrealistic… but loved unconditional.

two sides to a coin, one yours and one mine. which is more correct or more wrong, i m no one to decide… but you are correct I kn. Tried to make evry attempt to change my way. failed. even if i believe that i was changing.. you dont and that is what matters.. change was for me.. but more importantly its for you. With my actions, I m hurting you, every second and couldnt give u a single day of happiness. Life to me is seing a smile on your face and makin you feel that i love you.

may be we wont talk again, may be i ll get back to waht I was, or may be i ll remain waht I am as I may nt have changed at all… whaterver it amy be… My intentions have always been pure, my feelings, sacred.

Havent had a easy life and not blaming anyone for that but myself. May be the sins of my past life will haunt me forever. May be I did something very horrible to someone in my past life taht this is what i got. Dont want to hurt anyone else for my misdeed, I let go of things.

When I wanted to be alone, I never was. and today when I want to be with you, I am not allowed to.
Already sufferin from the punishment for things i did to you, minuscule as compared to waht u went through. Remember you as a breathe of fresh air in my life. Now on, i am choking to death.

I really dont understand wat s the hoopla behind all this… wat blog shud i wrote and what shudnt is complete my prerogative… u dislike something.. pl dont come again… i dont write to satisfy any of you… this is my personal space.. away from all of u…

All the cricketers in the world be envy of me! Just 4 days short of a magnificent double century with no indications to halt or stop, I am one lucky chap.

To my sooper-lovely, ultra- beautiful, and ekdum mast gf… I looooooove you…
I know that you have to “bear” with this devil and trust you are doing a fab job! I am quiet ok also!

Every nano-second, milli-second, and the smallest unit possible of time, I think of you you and only YOU. Whatever I am today, its coz of you and whatever I ll be tomorrow, it ll still be coz of you.
You are that inner power in me which makes me fire all cylinders! You are my inner self which makes me what I am. You are my soul which defines me and make me worthy of this beautiful life.

You are the fragrance which freshens my life. Its you you and only YOU which makes me complete and its you who has told me what love is.

I bet today Hanuman will be jealous of me as you are present in me more than Shri Ram in him! 🙂

Been two years and feels like just two minutes… My dea love… looking forward to make these two minutes into infinite lovely and memorable moments with you.

Just for you… I Love You.

I hate Bollywood. I just hate it. Far from reality and going farther every minute. Every film is just too shallow and disconnected. Sometimes I feel that every Bollywood director should turn into politicians as both do the same work. Make us believe in something which is non-consequencial to our lives.
Yes it might be true that money cant buy you everything but without it you cant even take a step closer to whatever that ‘everything’ is.